The other night I was lying down, exhausted because of a recent shopping trip (see said shopping trip for socks with hangover below). At the same time that I was taking it easy, I was chatting with my son, and at one point I shushed him for his volume. I wanted him to take it down a notch because the noise was hurting my ears. Unperturbed, he ...

Day 1.On the flight from London to this hilly city, I pondered my musings, what I had achieved, and if any type of conclusion were possible.  I missed my connecting flight from Chicago to Seattle.  I spent an unexpected two hours accepting being there.  I have a thing about being where I am.  Somewhere else always seems ...

The course title was ''Beckett and Aesthetics.''  I didn't know anything about Beckett but I felt six months of aesthetics was an investment of time I needed to make.  I'm not saying I wandered the halls of campus looking for likely courses to squat in, but, as with all good institutions, as a fully enrolled student any likely fellow ...

Day 13: Player, Glass beads.     [.....................]            

Alan: Anyway, I agree that I can be conscious of more than I currently allow, and I've noticed that for me it doesn't come by thinking more.  I find noticing more effective, though I still have to interpret what I notice and that can really stump me and is where the thinking comes in…. If to die is a conscious choice, then it would follow ...

Alan: what is real? Thinking things over now …. about wanting to know what's ''real'': yes there are some personal knots there, but also thinking about how necessary and instinctive such appears to be in the day-to-day - for me…. does raise questions about to what extent the real is discovered and to what extent it's created; what's habitual ...

Alan: related ...  I thought of the inside as awareness of self, knowledge of self, the outside as the external.  The unknown, the outside will always be infinite.  But within the circle - if all attention is focused on the outside, always, then the size of the circle is meaningless, it is as much an unknown as the outside - or, ...

Day 25  : I-Rhizome     [.....]   The great bear   ''Patterson is fascinated by the information which orders our lives. He humorously dislocates and subverts sources of information such as maps, diagrams and constellation charts; one of his best known works is The Great Bear, in which he replaced the names of ...

Alan: A couple of Seth quotes (sorry, no reference): ''I am simply saying that on your earth now there are species of consciousness, though that is probably not the best term. You have been so obsessed with exterior differences, especially of color and nationality, that you have completely ignored these other far more important variations ...

Alan:Dear Augustina, Another excerpt on the intermediate orientation. ......... [Why fear passion?] ''...It is a powerful energy.'' [Why fear power?] ''For [as an intermediate] you generate how you process inwardly, and that is a natural movement and expression; and in that natural movement and expression you begin to guard that inner ...